Footsteps

This chapter explores the process of meaning making in the life of a Fiji Indian Australian migrant, navigating through multiple existences, not leaving one or arriving at another. Presenting the paradoxical world of forming identities, feeling lost, marginalized, hopeless, and seeking validation for feelings of ambivalence, the subject uses episodic memory as a trigger for this writing and expressions which are autobiographical, narrative, punctuated with remembering, yearnings, hopes and dreams, reflective and reflexive, juxtaposed in a fast-moving world where the past is erasing in fleeting moments of recollections. Standing at a threshold which evokes images of passages, crossings, and change, the subject captures lived experiences and choices made in her in-between world of existence. The work exposes the vulnerabilities of displaced migrants living in multiple identities of a globalized world where society experiences a multitude of ruptures which fragment and dismantle some whilst sustaining others in creative new ways. Native country becomes an evolving fictional construct in this work which is reminiscent of the triadic relationship of fractured memory, desire, and multi-locality.